distressedude: (The lives he left behind...)
Fon Master Ion ([personal profile] distressedude) wrote 2012-04-01 08:37 am (UTC)

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...I know. But I-- [A pause. He realizes the impact of what he's just said, and knows full well the implications of his words. It's something he's been thinking about ever since that announcement. And there's a reason, until now, he's been keeping his thoughts to himself.]

...everyone is here in Luceti. Even knowing that someday everyone will go home, right now, they're here. And even when they leave, they can always come back. It's sad, but... there's still always that hope that we could meet again someday.

[He smiles. It's not quite genuine, but still not entirely sad either.]

It's selfish to feel that way. This place isn't perfect, and people still suffer. But when everyone is here, I feel... like I have a reason to keep living. It's not quite a purpose... I still don't know what I should do with my life here. But if I can live and see the smiling faces of the people I care about, maybe... that's enough for me. For now. For this life.

[His expression darkens, and he looks away. That smile, still there, is now far more sad. This is the first time he's shared these thoughts so openly, knowing how painful they could be for the one listening. He trusts Luke. Certainly it's a sign of how far he's come, to be able to have this conversation without trying to lie and make everything all right again.]

[He made a promise to Luke. He wants to keep that promise. Even if it's painful.]


...but no matter what happens here, that doesn't change the fact that someday everyone will go home. And should that day come ever for me, I...

[There's a pause. His next words are quiet and sad.]

I don't think I want to live in a world where I have no reason to live.

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